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Vol. 6, No.1• November 2001


Maybe
by Jennifer Painter

Maybe it was the time I talked back…
Maybe it was the time I didn't listen…
Maybe it was the time I got in trouble for smoking…
I am not really sure what happened, but I am so sorry that I was so bad.
I didn't mean to make you hate me…
I didn't mean to destroy my family…
I didn't mean to mess up everybody's lives…
And I certainly never meant to bring about so much pain.
What can I do?
How can I fix things?
I am just the child, but you are the adult.
Why am I such a bad person?
Why did things turn out like this?
Why did I do wrong?
Whatever I did, please tell me so I can fix it.
I only wanted a family…
I only wanted a normal life…
I only wanted a future…
But you, with your selfishness,
You took that away from me.
Why?
Maybe I didn't do anything wrong…
Maybe I still am a good person…
Maybe I am pursuing a normal life.
I never meant for you to hate me,
But if I could influence your emotions things would be different.
I never meant to destroy your family,
But maybe my friends have offered better support.
I never meant to mess up your lives,
But I never asked for you to mess up mine.
I never meant to bring about so much pain,
But I don't deserve to hurt, either.
I have become the adult…
One that I am proud of.
I have a new family…
Friends that mean the world to me.
I have created a new life…
A life worth living.
I am working towards my future…
And I will succeed. Jen Painter is a member of the Fostering Perspectives Advisory Board and a former foster child.

 

 

 

Get ready for Thanksgiving!
See if you can find the following words in this puzzle.

Brisk
Candy Apples
Chilly
Cider
Cranberry
Fall
Family
Fireplace
Football
Friends
Frost
Gravy
Harvest
Leaves
Pilgrim
Pumpkin
Rake
Sweater
Thanks
Turkey

I am
by Jessica, age 14

I am a dreamer
I wonder when this world will end
I hear laughter
I see tears
I want to fall in love

I am a dreamer
I pretend I can fly
I feel the wind
I touch the sky
I wonder when this world will end

I am a dreamer
I understand that I will never
I say never give up
I dream of love
I try to never doubt
I hope this world will never end
I AM A DREAMER!

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No one
will listen
By Holly Espinoza


Please, I'm hurt
He beat me
He made me feel bad
No one will listen
I tried to tell
But no one is here
I'm all alone
No one will listen
I'm older now
He's long gone
The pain is still here
In my heart and still
No one will listen

 

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See me
by Jessica, age 14

You see me
But do you really see me
I know you see me
The clothes I wear
The color of my skin Do you really see me
For the person I am
The person within
Do you know me
My innermost thoughts
My desires Do you judge me
Coming up with opinion
Yet knowing no facts.
Claiming I'm just that
Type of person Well please keep your opinions
and I'll keep my facts
But all you have to do
to know me is ASK.

A story about Broyhill camp
by Sherry Illerburn

Hi. My name is Sherry Adrianne Illerbrun and I am going to tell you a little bit about myself. I am 17 years old and have a 17-month-old little boy. I am currently attending Central Piedmont Community College and going to receive my GED in a couple of months to a year. After receiving my GED I am going to start some RN classes to hopefully receive my degree in nursing in at least 2_3 years. I am currently a cashier at the Kimmerly Glen Food Lion in Charlotte, North Carolina, making $6.50 an hour. My son goes to daycare during the day and comes home at night. My son has been recently moved to another foster home because of some problems my foster mother and I were having with him, but I should be getting him back soon. Well, I think that should cover everything about myself and my life. I was just wanting to let you know a little bit about myself and now I want to tell you a story about a lovely camp that I went to.
The name of the camp is Broyhill Camp at Belmont Abbey College, in Charlotte. When my social worker first told me about this camp I wasn't too sure about it because I didn't know anyone attending. Also, I didn't think I had any problems.
I finally agreed to go to this camp and at first I was uncomfortable because I knew no one that was attending this camp and I thought I was the only one with a child. Well, come to find out I wasn't, there were several other people there with a child or children. I felt better after I found that out.
As the day went on I met a lot of nice and wonderful people, males and females. I went to this camp with a negative attitude and came out with a positive attitude. I also went to this camp with low self-esteem and came out with a higher self-esteem than ever. It's still not all that high, but I have improved.
I learned a lot at this camp. I learned responsibility, how to control my anger, and a whole lot more, how to not only look at my physical appearance, but also my mental and emotional appearance. I learned how to take
criticism a whole lot better. Sticks and stones may break my bones but words will never hurt me. This is no lie. Before I went to this camp, I cried all the time when I was hollered at, told I done something wrong, or even being on punishment. Now, after that camp, I hardly cry about anything except when I'm really upset or hurting. I learned how to make friends and I learned how to deal with people who don't like you, but it really don't matter to me because I will always have friends, God, my son, my mother, my foster mother, and most of all my best friend of three and a half years, Amanda.
No matter what I do wrong they will always love me. My best friend and mother have been there for me through thick and thin. I also appreciate my social workers, for being there for me.
The main reason why I am writing this story is to try and encourage people who need help with anything about their children or anything else, then please find it in your heart to find someone to help you, and it don't matter who. Here's two examples: Moore County Department of Social Services and Mecklenburg County Lutheran Family Services.
Don't be afraid to ask for help, please. I've been in a rough situation just like a lot of other children and adults have been in. Just don't be afraid. And for the children in foster care or who have been in foster care, please think about attending Broyhill Camp. It helps you out with everything. Other teens there can also give you advice because they might have been through what you've been through or are going through what you've been through. I liked it so much that I want go back next time. Don't ever forget there is always someone out there who will always love you, and that's your heavenly father, Jesus Christ.
Thank you for taking the time to read my lovely story about Broyhill Camp in Charlotte, NC.

 

Contest
Would you like a chance to be published in the next issue of Fostering Perspectives? To enter, send us something you're proud to have written or drawn. Drawing contest: 1st prize: $50; 2nd prize: $40; 3rd prize: $30. Writing contest: $25 for works of 250 words or more and $15 for shorter pieces. Mail to: John McMahon, Jordan Institute for Families, 340 Victoria Rd., Pines Bldg., Room 403, Asheville, NC 28801. Artwork should be mailed flat (unfolded) on white, unlined paper. Include your name, age, address, social security number (used to process awards only, your confidentiality will be protected) and phone number.

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